Archive | August 2013

Why did you have to go so soon?

A few weeks ago, someone extremely close to my boyfriend passed away very unexpectedly.  They hadn’t really talked in a year or two, but after 20+ years of friendship, that doesn’t change the fact that I know my guy is deeply affected by this loss.  

He goes on everyday acting like he isn’t hurting but I know he is.  Subtle changes in his behavior tell me all I need to know.  Mixed in with this sadness there is definitely guilt over not resolving an issue they had.  

It sucks so bad seeing the hurt and knowing that I can only be here to support him. It would be easier to help if he would break down and cry or talk about it a little bit more, but as men usually do, he’s been so strong keeping it all inside.  I wish I had a time machine so I could rewind time and bring him back, or at the very least, give them the chance for one more conversation.  

My beliefs are that our souls never expire.  I know he is looking over Rick and I know that all is resolved on the other side.  

My heart hurts for his family that I just barely met and I know that they are in for a long road of hurt and healing.  Especially his beautiful children.  

It took me a few weeks to be able to write even this little bit about him without breaking down over the whole situation.  I guess this is all a part of the bigger picture in life and if we couldn’t get through this, we wouldn’t have been dealt this hand.  

This speed bump on our road through life has definitely been one of the bigger bumps.  But I have a feeling that this will help heal broken relationships that needed to be repaired.  Sucks that they had to be repaired with this tragedy, but some of the worst tragedies help us see the beauty in the brighter days to come.


RIP Klauus Torres  We will forever hold you in our hearts!